Aug. 4th, 2010 | 11:05 am
Today I started the "Master cleanse." I heard about this from a former co-worker, she was a little plump. She is a part of the fashion world, so I can imagine the pressure she experienced to be thinner. I am proud of her for loosing the weight.
Now its my turn....
I have purchased "vibrant cleanse". Which it the lemonade diet but its in powder form, and it taste pretty good. HOWEVER this cleanse call for something else... A salt water solution aka (SWF) it is the most disgusting thing.
right now it is 11:04am i will be at work until 9pm ... stay tuned for Day 2.... i hope i make it
Sep. 20th, 2009 | 01:17 pm
im fat im at 247 pounds i dont know what happend... i just need to stop stuffing my fat face today is when i take back control
Jul. 1st, 2006 | 09:52 pm
umm i don't know whats so wrong with me im really not feeling good my head is sooooooo dizzy when i get up i can't stand im trying to stay from around my sister becuz she will know whats wrong with me if she see's me. and i wanna work things out with my ex-boyfriend the other day on the phone he asked me how much weight did i gain i said i lost 15lbs he said is your weight between 160 and 170 i said yes he said thats still too much i said i know, ohhhhh guys just dont know what to do im really really dying inside. i just dont see me anymore its like i have an obsession with loosing weight i think that b4 i met him i didn't really care this much but we aren't 2gether and i find myself purging and not eating past 9am or not eating at all i think i really need help but i dunno i really wanna be thin and pretty school starts in september and i wanna loose about 20 more pounds. my wrist have gotten really skinny my mom commented on that yesterday, i think i need to go somewhere and just die in my own sadness i dont want anyone to try and help, i just wanna be sad and die, i feel like i dont love myself anymore, yesterday my mom took me and my nephew to wendy's and i ate i wanted to go to the bathroom soooo bad and purge i really wanted to, since lastnight i have been crying trying not to let my sister see me i have been sitting in the dark laying down
May. 26th, 2006 | 09:03 pm
i need help not eATING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
May. 14th, 2006 | 01:46 pm
tomorrow i only plan to have green tea crstal light and chicken broth well we will if i make any progress
May. 14th, 2006 | 01:28 am
well i have a boyfriend and he really doesnt date fat girls but he's with me, he's always talking about how much i eat. so i decided not to and i take stacker2 but its not working fast enough.
May. 14th, 2006 | 01:20 am
my boyfriend doesn't really know that i have an eating disorder, none of my friends know either. MY boyfriend doesn't really know that a kinda do it for him. But he doesnt like fat girls and i don;t wanna get any fatter. in september i was 168 b4 that i was 203 now im 179 what the fuck. last night my school had a dance and i passed out so what it was becuz i did it wrong. but whatever emo-
May. 14th, 2006 | 01:07 am
IM LIKE TRYING TO MAINTAIN ANA AND SHIT BUT LIKE I DONT KNOW Y IM NOT LOSING THE WEIGHT FASTER ANS I TAKE STAKER2 WITH EPHEDRA FREE. FUCK WHEN I WAS TAKING IT B4 I WOULD LOSE IT QUICKER BUT I THINK ITS BECUZ THERE WAS EPHEDRA IN IT.